Love me anyway.

So its been a rough week and a half to say the least. 

I have been shown love and compassion by some amazing people.

 Who despite my shortcomings love me anyway.

 Despite my needing lots of reassurance right now love me anyway.

 I have a hard time believing that I am worthy of that love.

 That I am lovable.

 But they stick by me anyway...

with a hand to hold 

a shoulder to cry on and with,

 a bed to sleep in

 and an ear to listen, 

they love me anyway.

 Right now for myself life is kinda a blur.

 I am living moment to moment. 

Some moments are okay others are almost un bearable.

 But knowing that I am being loved anyway is ...

 right now the only thing I am holding on to.

 I know in my head that God loves me. 

But right now he seems so far away.

 Right now I want to yell at him and blame him.

 Right now I am not able to seek him. 

Right now those people who are loving me through this are seeking him for me.

 I hope I am at the place soon where I can feel him again.

Where I can seek him again.

 But right now I am just not there. 

Right now I am thankful for those who "Love me Anyway".